My good works, however wretched and imperfect, have been made better and perfected by Him Who is my Lord: He has rendered them meritorious. As to my evil deeds and my sins, He hid them at once. The eyes of those who saw them, He made even blind; and He has blotted them out of their memory.
I was twenty one years old and I thought, "here I am my health is at risk, my life is going to go down hill from here and I really had to have a look in the mirror to see what the cause was of that and the cause of that was me.