I decided to live as an individual and as I grew older, and thought more, and read more and experienced more, my views became more conservative. But my group is liberal. Not only that, they say, 'If you're not liberal and not a Democrat, you're not black. If you're conservative, you're a sellout. ' Here, then, I'm living with that kind of a pressure against my individuality.
Good-byes breed a sort of distaste for whomever you say good-bye to; this hurts, you feel, this must not happen again.