I enjoy hitting a batsman more than getting him out. I like to see blood on the pitch. And I've been training on whisky.
The trouble you're expecting never happens; it's always something that sneaks up the other way.
As for man, there is little reason to think that he can in the long run escape the fate of other creatures, and if there is a biological law of flux and reflux, his situation is now a highly perilous one. During ten thousand years his numbers have been on the upgrade in spite of wars, pestilences, and famines. This increase in population has become more and more rapid. Biologically, man has for too long a time been rolling an uninterrupted run of sevens.
Men go and come, but earth abides.
Thrasyllus the Cynic begged a drachm of Antigonus. "That," said he, "is too little for a king to give. " "Why, then," said the other, "give me a talent. " "And that," said he, "is too much for a Cynic (or, for a dog) to receive. "
I started work on my first French history book in 1969; on 'Socialism in Provence' in 1974; and on the essays in Marxism and the French Left in 1978. Conversely, my first non-academic publication, a review in the 'TLS', did not come until the late 1980s, and it was not until 1993 that I published my first piece in the 'New York Review. '
What seems most likely is generally true.
Meditation doesn't have to be complicated. What I do is about as simple as you can get. You could just count the beads, one, two, three, with your eyes closed or open, whatever makes you happy.