The hardest thing is deciding what I should tell you and what not to. Well, anyway, I've got a while yet before you're old enough to understand the tapes. They're more for me at this point. . . to help get it all straight. Should I tell you about your father? That's a tough one. Will it change your decision to send him here. . . knowing? But if you don't send Kyle, you could never be. God, you can go crazy thinking about all this. . . I suppose I'll tell you. . . I owe him that. And maybe it'll be enough if you know that in the few hours we had together we loved a lifetime's worth.
I taught for 17 years in an inner city comprehensive schools.