If you don't exert yourself, or if your exertions don't amount to much of anything, then you might as well not have bothered to have shown up for your existence at all.
I guess that in this process of trying to incorporate or to be faithful to the films I admire so much, thats how I start to find my own voice. The admiration I have for filmmakers, this gratitude, perhaps thats my only way to become specific.