Occasionally, you feel like the only person able to win the match. So you take all the responsibility, you do too much, and you do something bad.
You discover over time that music can be overwhelming. Unless the musicians involved understand this they can lose audiences. Spontaneity and improvisation are salient features but I also strive to make music that is peaceful. I want to make music that aids world peace in the same way that the people who shaped my development did.