When you idolise someone, or you hold someone in such high regard, you just want them to be everything that you think there are - and when they are it's just lovely.
To idolise a person means you don't get to know them, and the idea that you can become one is a myth, and it also means that you don't need to talk to one another because you're the same person.
People tell me they idolise me, want to be like me, but I tell them, 'trust me, you don't want my life. ' I've been a very tortured soul.