They drummed into you that pain was good, you were supposed to go with it, push into the pain, and only. . . now. . . did I contemplate what retarded advice this was.
I feel too much. It's like being drummed to death from within. You know?
There have been times when I could have succumbed to some form of bribe, or could have had my way by offering one. But ever since that night in Dover prison I have never been tempted to break my vow. . My Parents always drummed into me that all you have life is your reputation: you may be very rich, but if you lose your good name you'll never be happy.
They've drummed the miraculous out of you, but you don't want it to be like that. You want the miraculous. You want everything to still be new.
The creed of evil has been, since the beginnings of highly industrialized society, not only a precursor of barbarism but a mask of good. The worth of the latter was transferred to the evil that drew to itself all the hatred and resentment of an order which drummed good into its adherents so that it could with impunity be evil.
If we learned everything there is to know in kindergarten, it was promptly drummed out of us in first grade.
